BRIAN MCKNIGHT CONCERT !!!

ooh my gosh..theres only one word...AMAZING !!!....i went to see brian mcknight in concert last nite and i luved it! i was so pissed that i didnt get to go to Mariah Carey's concert last week, yes the diva was here in jakarta...the damn tickets were so expensive, so my rents didnt let me buy the ticket =( so to make it up, we all went to see brian...who went? lets see...
Wina and her bf
Indry and her bf
Febian and his gf
Adri and his gf
Catia, Donald, and I ---> all singles!
i have to say it sucked a lil (just a lil) that i didnt go with sumone special =( but its ok, us singles still had a great time!
i came to love his songs even more now... i trully think he is the master of love songs =)
this was the 1st concert i went to in jakarta, deff not a bad one!
anyways i cant wait til the next concert....im hopin it'll b JT's concert...but i highly doubt it...hahahaah...

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !!!

i kno i kno..i havent blogged for almost a month...yikes, im sowwie! but i promise i will start bloggin again soon =) but for now i just wanted to say HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY for everyone..i hope u guys had a great one with ur loved ones...

i also would like to say HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO:
Cristin <--- miss u pisang!
Siso <--- hope u had a good one stranger =)
Kanel <--- i wish i was there with u to celebrate it! but im sure u had a great one, luv ya!

so far those r the b-days for this month, still have some more comin up =)

luv ya miss ya sooo much!

im back im back

gosh i havent blogged in a while..i've been..lets see, wuts that word...hmm..lazy!..hehe...yeah, so anyways hows 2004 goin for u guys? mine is alrite...not too great, just aiight...
so wut have i been doin lately.....

Jan 16, 2004: my boitday! i turned 22!! gosh cant believe im 22 already..how did i celebrate it? we had a private party at this cafe/club..opened about 10 bottles, crazy asians hehehe...about 50 ppl came, and most of them were febian's friends..hehee..but its all good...just like last year, felt like it was a b-day party for the both of us..hehehe... had a great time! everyone got pretty drunk...it was deff a nite to remember!! wish u guys were there that nite =(

Jan 20, 2004: shooting for my 1st commercial!!! its for a chocolate bar called Silver Queen...not the main talent cuz there were 8 other ppl..and i think my part will only b for a second! hehehe...i didnt kno that it takes a longggg time to make one commercial...i was there from 7am til 11pm..it was crazy! but i had an awesome day, got to meet new ppl, pretty kewl ppl actually...the commercial will air sumtime next month, cant wait to see it!

Jan 21, 2004: went on a castin call at a production house...went pretty well, they asked me to act a lil..which i thought i wouldnt b able to do cuz i cant really act...but everythin went well and good news they called me that same day and told me i got a small part for a TV series...shootin is on fri...yikes, wish me luck guys!

and thats pretty much wut i've been doin lately..nothin to bizzare...
i miss u guys soo much, think of u guys all time!
hope everythins well with everyone...til next blog =)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

i kno i kno...im kinda late on that one...but i've been out of town so i havent gotten the chance to blog =( so just let me get it out...
MERRY XMAS !
HAPPY BELATED B-DAY to Shereef, Omar, and Penny!
and ofcourse HAPPY NEW YEAR !
i hope all of u guys had a great holiday...mine was pretty nice, spent 2 weeks in Bandung, pretty much chilled with my cuzins every freakin day...which felt pretty good actually cuz i got hella bored being a home body in Jakarta...hehehe
how did i spend my new year's eve? well...we rented a house and had a private party kinda thing for me, febian, his friends, and our cuzins...and i was in charge of makin Jello shots, u kno i never made jello shots before cuz back in VA penny was always the one who made them...so how did i do? they were too damn strong! hahaha but everyone liked it, and there was none left, all gone! woo hoo...hehehe...it was fun, to be honest i havent had that much fun ever since i got here, i have to say the best part would b..watchin my 2 younger cuzins got trashed..hahaha...
but anyways now im back in Jakarta...and guess wut??? my ass is goin to BALI on wednesday!!! wooo hooo...my fam and i will b there til sunday...gosh, i cant even remember when was the last time i was there, soo long ago...deff lookin forward to it!
ok ok..i gotta get goin...but i miss u guys sooo much, its not even funny!

special shout out for my silly, i miss u!!! muchaz muaaahhhz and lots of 143s!

HELLO HELLO

well helloooo there!! yes yes i am back in indo! i got the ticket home for this past sat so my aunt and cuzins didnt leave me there in hong kong..hehehe...
was there for 4 days and i only got one word for ya...it was AWESOME !!! i had soo much fun even tho some days we goy really tired...i must say i was lovin it, wish we all could have stayed longer...
we did alot of shoppin and took lots of pics too...
u kno how much i love Red Bull (thanks to big george hehehe)...it sux so bad cuz we dont have red bull over here =( so anyways while we were doin grocery shoppin, guess wut i found? yup yup..RED BULL wooo hoooo i bought a couple to bring back to Jakarta, pretty pathetic rite..yea well i didnt care..hehehe
another thing i got was magazines! US magazines to b exact, they do sell them over here but they doubled the price so it really is not worth it...so i got about 4 of them while i was there =)
i loved the downtown, it reminded me of new york, so many ppl walkin! the only diff is every where i look, i see asians..hehehe...
not gonna tell everythin in details (im in the lazy mood, sowwie) but all i can say is my trip to Hong Kong was great, i deff wouldnt mind goin back there again!

not only did i have a great trip, on top of that..i got home and found a fedex package addressed to me...i was like hmmm could this b the care package hector been meanin to send me? well it wasnt! hector wut happened to the care package?!?! hehehehe...so i opened it and taaaa daaaaa it was JT and XTINA merchandise from Channel V (the other MTV) !!!! it turns out that i had won a contest! woo hoooo....i have never won any contests in my whole life!! and just to make it even better it was a JT contest! aaaaahhhhhh i was soooo happy it wasnt even funny! i got a JT and Xtina shirts, cd singles, a poster, an xtina belt, and postcards...see, since i have so much free time and i watch tv alot... most of the time music television too, so yes sad but true i enter their contests..hehehe...

anyways me gots to get goin, gettin pretty sleepy over here..miss u guys!!!

im goin to HONG KONG..woo hoooo

yup yup...im goin to Hong Kong!! hehehe... ok ok so where have i been this past week?...well the fam and i went to Bandung for the 2nd day of Eid...and i stayed there til this afternoon...i was gonna stay longer but then my aunt called me up and asked me if i wanted to go to Hong Kong with her and her 2 kids...i was never gonna say no to that! so i said count me in! hehehe...so then i had to take the train to Jakarta, where i am now...and the plane leaves at 8 o'clock in the mornin 2morro...good god, i havent even packed yet! i'll b there til saturday that is if i get a ticket home, if not who knos how long i'll b in Hong Kong...hahah..no no, i think the latest will b next monday =)
we'll b visiting my cuzin Mieta and her husband Bradley, i didnt get to play tennis with him when he was here...so im hopin i'd get to play him over there...
i am sooo excited! i've never been to Hong Kong before, i dont have that much moulah to go shoppin so i'll deff b takin lots and lots of pics..hehehe...
anyways, i better get goin..better start packin...i miss u guys!!
kanel --- thanks for the e-mail, i miss u i miss u i miss u, cant write u back now but i will when i get back ok? luv ya lots!

happy eid

cant believe ramadhan is over already..whoa..time flies huh..anyways just wanted to say happy eid! and ofcourse my butt is goin out of town again...so i'll blog when i come back...

home sweet home

yup yup..finally back home...i've been at my aunt's for the past week...my couzin MIETA who lives in Hong Kong came on monday (she'll b here until Eid) and she's stayin at my aunt's for a week before she goes to Bandung...she was like i dont get to see u much so u better keep me company while im in Jakarta, so i decided to stay at my aunt's =)

her husband will also come here for Eid, his name is Bradley everyone calls him Brad but i sure like Bradley better so yea im gonna call him Bradley...and no hes not indo, hes white i think he is from Ohio wait or maybe its Idaho hhmm im not sure now..but anyways i've never met the guy before but everyone here thinks hes kewl...cant wait to meet him...i promised him a tennis match, yikes i havent played in soo long, i hope i dont embarassed myself..hehehe

let see wut else did i do this past week...oooh, i went on a castin call at a Production House...it went hmm aiight i guess...to make long story short, i wasnt prepared for it cuz they told me last minute so i wasnt feelin it, and they gave me script for me to memorize, goodness i didnt realize i would have a hard time memorizin sentences in indo! arrrgghhh

sowwie but im fallin asleep, will continue tomorro....

its about damn time

phew..got that rite, we've been renovating 1/3 of the house for the past month or so...and today is the day! the last day! all done! no more noises wakin me up in the wee mornin, woo hooo =) and thats rite i said 1/3 of the house, yah my grandma only lets us renovate 1/3 of her house, shes not the nicest lady in the world...but hey we're happy with it, our part of the house looks like a 3 bedroom apt. now...hehehe..and yea if u do the math, my rents got one room, my bro got one, and surprise surprise..my lil butt gets to share one with my sis, again!! i've shared a room with her for as long as i could remember...nooo so called privacy! arrgghhh
we got all our furniture sent to our house today, so i was movin stuff round the whole day..i have a feelin im gonna b all sore tomorro =(

oooh oooh thanks for the call guys! lets see, who did i get to talk to earlier...hmm...
asta (i was chattin with her earlier for a pretty long time, so i pretty much told her wut i've been up to)
kanel (i had talked to her on aim earlier also, so she knos wuts up)
ron ron (now this boy, i havent talked to him in soo long, but he tms and e-mails me from time to time)
emanee (last time i talked to her was on her b-day, she finally gave me her cell #, for the longest time i didnt even kno she had one hehe)
luis (we talk on aim from time to time too)
and last but not least i talked to penny!!! (oooh my god, last time i talked to her was at the airport! shes a busy body, busy with skool and work so it was sooo nice to finally talked to her)
i miss u guys soo much!!! ooh and they told me hector was there earlier but hes such a party pooper that he left early...hahah...just jokin playa pimp <--hahahaha...i miss u too hec!

after i hung up with them, my silly called !!! i finally got to really talk to him, we've been playin fone tags for the past couple of days..and when we did talk it wasnt more than 3 mins =( so yea i was all happy, deff put a big cheesy smile on my face hehehe i love u silly!

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY ASTA !!!

DAMNNNN...cant believe shes 22 already, goodness! that means soon enuff i'll 22 too, yikes!...i hope u have an awesome one asta!...for the past 2 years we went bowlin on ur her b-day, gonna keep up with the tradition or wut?? just let me kno when and where, and i'll b there....(ugh, i wish!)..hehehe....asta, dont get too drunk ok, i mean its not ur 21st b-day hehehe...i called ur house but ur dadday said ur not home, so im guessin ur at work...i'm gonna call u now, but just dont put me on hold forever ok....luv ya miss ya...and ttys!!!

HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY EMANEE !!!

yup yup..today is my girl emanee's 20th b-day...hope she has a great one!...i remember exactly last year we had cake fight at her apartment..and both her and asta got hella drunk, asta even threw up in my car...haha..good times!...anyways she called me up last week and talked for a good 30 mins i think =) thank u soo much for the call emanee!...just wanna wish her the best !

I wish i could look in your eyes
And tell you how i feel
Right now inside
Baby i know that it's real
So real so real, so real
How i wish i could be with you
How i wish i wish i wish i could be with you right now

Every morning, every afternoon, every night
I wanna be with you
It don't matter if we go to the park or watch a play
Stay in the hotel room all day
I just wanna be with you
I love everything about you
From your old school tennis shoes
To the way you move when you're dancing with me

Do you remember our first kiss
It wasn't long enough
Remember the first time
We spent those weeks together
They were not long enough
All of our conversations
All of your sweet pages
They're never long enough

When it's time for me to leave
It's so hard to say good-bye
I never want to say good-bye
I never ever want to say good-bye

One day we'll make love
Finally i'll be yours
Only you only you
I could love you
It's too late
I already love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

Beyonce---Gift from Virgo

HAPPY HALLOWEEN !!!

hope everyone has a good halloween, be safe!!! mayn i wish i were in va so i could dress up on this day...hicks hicks...deff not doin anythin for halloween, 1st-the clubs r closed due to ramadhan, 2nd-no trick or treaters, lastly-no one really do halloween over here..sux..yea i deff miss all the orange and black!!
anyways...if any of u guys dressin up, dont forget to take pics ok..i wanna seeeee them =)

PHEW
i am sooo tired !! nooo im not tired from loungin round the house..i actually had my 1st modelin job today! woo hooo woo hooo...so i was enjoyin my sleep and then round 10ish (i kno, im a bum..wakin up at 10)..got a fone call tellin me i have a photo shoot at noon...its for the fashion section of a tabloid that r issued only at colleges...and since its ramadhan, the models wear muslim attires...so i was pretty much covered from head to toe..hehe...its all good tho (i think the fam and my silly like it better that way..hehehe)...first, i got my make up done, i loved it! u kno, i think since i dont wear make up that often i get extra excited when i get a chance for a make over, yeaa i see it as a make over..hehe..the clothes were pretty, and goodness i didnt kno there were so many ways to do the scarf, so many diff styles!..i was deff impressed....hhmm lets see..there were 4 ladies, 1 guy, and 3 lil kids...i must say the other girls were pretty, not to mention they were nice too...my ooh my...i didnt think it would have taken 5 hours!..it litterally took 5 hours and i only changed my outfit 3 times, one of them was bright orange! haha i cant believe i wore bright orange from head to toe...buuuuuttttt it didnt look that bad..im serious, i didnt..hehe...i will deff show u guys pics of it...soon soon

even tho im all tired, i have to admit i had fun and deff not a bad 1st experience...hopin for many more!

goodness..i havent blogged for a month..alot of things been goin on...but 1st let me just say HAPPY RAMADHAN to those of u who celebrate the month of ramadhan...we start fasting tomorrow, yikes i think its gonna b hard..days r longer...time seems to go by really slow to begin with...and not to mention this is gonna b the 1st time in 8 years that i will b fastin in indo..i dunno, the whole surroundings r gonna b diff u kno...we'll see if i'll b stugglin or not..hehehe..

good news..my mom came back to jakarta 2 days ago...this is wut happened, we went to bandung for a weekend about 3 weeks ago...and while we were there my mom's blood pressure went up so we had to rushed her to the hospital...my dad, sis, and i had to go back to jakarta cuz i wasnt done with my skool yet and my dad and sis have work...so we had to leave my mom in bandung =( febian was there with her tho....she was in the hospital about 5 days...we were in and out of town for the past 3 weeks...and i must say that was tiring...but she's feelin better now and shes happy that she will spending ramadhan with her fam....

its over! im done with modelin skool! our last day was on fri, we had our final presentation which was a fashion show for our parents and friends...it went well, my hair was curly and wavy at the same time hehe u dunno how happy i was-i've always wanted my hair to b wavy cuz my hair is too damn straight!, i did pretty well on the make up too, i didnt look like a clown haha..and, aaannnddd i didnt trip on the runway!!..hehehe..but see now i dunno if i should be happy that its over or not...i mean now i dont have anythin to do, like nothin at all!!! hhhmmm...yeah i will deff have to find sumthin else to do...

ooohh ooohhh...sumthin im really excited bout!!...i'm gonna make a portfolio...woo hooo woo hooo...i need this so i can go to agencies and see if they would like me to join them..then hopefully i'll get some jobs too....i cant wait!

here is a link for my photo album...its still new so i dont have many pics on it..
http://asia.f1.pg.photos.yahoo.com/yellobebe4
but feel free to check it out anyway

pheww...i am so tired..was out all day...where was i? well today my bro and his breakin crew had a competition..and ofcourse i went to support..not only me, the whole fam..yup the whollleeee fam from the tweens to their mommas..hehe...it was at the town square so it was outdoor...not kewl! it was sooo hot it wasnt even funny...and soo many ppl showed up too..blah! but its all good, i was deff supportin my bro...believed it or not i am a proud sister..hehe...they did very well, they got 1st place! woo hooo woo hooo...i think i lost my voice from screamin and yellin =P

anyways the event started at 2 and now its 10 at nite sooo i am dead tired..gonna sign off soon...

but before i do...wanna shout out to KANEL BELL thanks for the tm...luv ya lots and miss u crazy!!! when r u gonna come visit me??? hope everythins well with u and the fam...big hugs for big george okie hehehe...hope to talk to u soon...i'll try to call u sumtime soon...take care and say hello to the girls! =)

im feelin better, i must say writin down wut i feel in this online journal helps..i guess havin a blog was a pretty good idea...

so wut have i been doing...hmmm...last week i went on a castin call and i actually got the part =) in indo, we bite other countries tv shows sooo now we are gonna copy mtv's dismissed...its called "mak comblang" which means "cupid"...and yes i do have a boyfriend so y the hell am i goin on this show...well this is only the pilot which means its fake...i told my silly bout it and hes fine with it, see its alot diff than "dismissed", u kno they have freaks on that show...indo's tv stations r really strict bout that stuff, they cant show any kissing and stuff like that....so yeah my silly says thats kewl and have fun on ur blind date..hehe... so i had the blind date yesterday, the guy's name is Zahid...on the 1st date he and this girl played pool, on my part of the date we went joggin-yup they worked me, cuz we actually jogged-, and the last girl got to go on a dinner with him...i think it will air sumtime in oct but im not sure...the date went well, he was nice and funny but hes only 18..can u believe they set me up with an 18 year old? haha i was soo nervous cuz it was my 1st job and all the cameras freaked me out a lil...but i must say i had a pretty fun time!

last nite i went to a so called house party...yea, no...it wasnt a house party..it was more like a get together...and it SUCKED ass...ok so this is how i got invited...these rappers from malay called Too Phat is in town (they're pretty famous in asia, apparently they have single with Warren G)...and they brought their breakers with them, and ofcourse my bro knows them some how...so yup, my bro got invited and i tagged along..hehe...and no i didnt go as one of the groupies cuz i dont even kno how they look like and i only know one of their songs...i wasnt gonna go cuz i didnt feel like goin with a bunch of b-boys but thank god this girl Nina came along...shes cool as shiet, she lived in cali for the past 3 years and she moved back to indo about 4 months ago...she doesnt like it here either and is planning to go back in january..she has an accent when she speaks indo, i was like oo whoa i think i sound like her when i speak...hehehe....we were like finally, someone to speak english with! both of us think our english has gone bad ever since we moved here, how sad....and we didnt care so much bout weights when we were in the states and now both of us r tryin to lose some weight, im tellin the pressure to b thin is crazy over here....but anyways the point is i feel like i finally met someone i can relate to, feels like we have so much in common..she says she'll call me up when she goes to the gym hehehe so yea hopefully we'll chill more....
ooh so back to the party....the dj played some good songs but no one really danced...some celebrities were there, the so called IT ppl in jakarta were there, some were nice and ofcourse some had sumtin up their butts...how do i rate the party...hmmm..a 5...next time next time...hehe

anyways im tired and i think the blog is long enuff...so im off to bed....

shout ouf to OMAR i got ur e-mail, thank u! and i will write u back soon, take care and ttys =)

1st i wanna give a shout out to RON RON thanks for the e-mail...i hope everythin is well with u over there =)

and now...wut have i been doin lately? well...i think this is gonna be a long blog..lets see....

i quit my job...i got that job on tues, my 1st day was yesterday and i quit yesterday too...i went in, went home for lunch, and my ass didnt go back to the office...that was a cheap shot, i kno i kno....but i wasnt feelin it, 1st my dad was the one who got me the job (my boss or ex boss is my dad's friend)...it didnt feel rite workin for my dad's friend..blah...2nd what i made in the states for an hour, i get that for the whole day over here...trust me, that hurt! and i kno i shouldnt compare but i couldnt help it...and last but not least, i myself didnt wanna work but i felt like i was forced to take the job...i kne from the start the whole thing wasnt gonna work out..i woke up that mornin and got ready to go to work just to make my parents happy...pretty sad rite...yup, well i kno they're dissapointed in me and im sure they think im just bein a big baby...i admit the job was a good one cuz it was at ASEAN (Association of South East Asian Nations) its deff a big deal over here...but i was just not ready or more like dont want another mon to fri, 9 to 5 kinda job for now...speakin indo wasnt really a problem either, cuz they speak half indo half english at ASEAN, actually i was workin with these 2 white men and they speak indo...at one point i answered the fone and this lady ask me where i came from and how come i have an accent when i speak indo...that pissed me off even more!

so really, am i bein a big baby? im sure u guys think i am...but hear me out...maybe im just mad, maybe i just dont like how i live my life, maybe im just really missin my silly and my friends, i miss them soo much that it hurts and the 3 months that i've been here i still have nites where i cry myself to sleep and i just cant help it....i dunno what it is, im just not a happy camper, sumtimes i feel lost...and sumtimes i feel like ppl r always forcin me to do things i dont wanna do...was i lookin for a job? no...did i want to move back to indo? noooooooo...my friends r there, i had a job, i had my own car, etc..point is, i was happy with my life and now its gone! y did i have to move back? y do i have to start from scratch again? ppl say i will like it here after a couple of months, well i dont buy it...i honestly cant wait til i go back to the states...now i kno what it means when ppl say life is not fair, cuz it really isnt!

ugh i think im done bitchin...i've been really emotional lately and it doesnt feel good...

JSFRU HECTOR

ARRRGHHH for some reason it wont let me tag...ive been meanin to reply to ur tags hectOr..here it goes...its sooo not my fault ur ass always have the damn away message on..errrtime i get online ur always away! and i knoooo u're not workin, i kno ur just buggin da-neaaaaa..haha...so yeah, next time i get online u better b ready to chit chat with me....ooh and one more thing, my journals didnt die down...i just got hella busy (yea rite) uhhh u jerk!....miss u too dork

gosh..havent blogged in a while...cant say much cuz i cant stay online too long today..just wanna sat HAPPY 21ST BOITDAY to my bolivian chick MRM...wish u the best and it was oh so nice that i got to talk to on the fone...luv ya lots and miss u sooo much!

muchaz muaahhz and lots of 143s for my silly..i love u!