NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW YEAR ERRRRRBODY !!!

HAVE A SAFE NEW YEAR'S EVE !!!

DON'T DRINK TOO MUCH !!! HEHEHE

AND

I HOPE WE ALL HAVE A BETTER YEAR IN 2006 !!!

image

i always try to make a good image of myself... always try to b a nice girl so ppl would like me... i wouldnt say i try too hard... and as many times have i said i dont care wut ppl think of me, i still do... damn it... and u kno me, i always try to please other ppl... i cant say no to ppl, if i can make them feel better then im straight... even when they're happy and i'm miserable, i'd still b straight...

as if thats not bad enuff... the worst thing bout bein me is that i care too much bout wut other ppl think of me, so i end up hurtin a person who cares for me the most... im blinded by other ppl, i pretty much cant see that i'm hurtin this person... over and over and over again... until, its too late... is it too late?.... i really hope not... cuz i cant seem to even picture wut my life would b w.out this special person...

im deff feelin blue...

FHM

yup... u got that rite... FHM as in For Him Magazine...

so today we had a photo shoot at FHM Indo... we as in Me, Sabria, Metha, and Imey... as in the girls in the movie im involved in... it was part of the movie promo and we were given a spread of 6 pages... which is a great thing, buuuttt yyyyy does it have to b for FHM... i mean i kno i've said this before, and i bet u guys remember me sayin i'd like to pose for FHM one day... but that was like in 2000... goodness its almost 2006 and i deff have grown a lil.. just a lil.. hehehe... so i wasnt really that excited when the offer was rite under my nose, u kno.... and on top of that, i have a big fam, i mean biiiiggggg and religious fam over here... i just kno that they would freak if they were to see me on FHM... not good not good...

but after all these unimportant arguments, plus misunderstandin occured with the production house... i decided to do it, for the sake of the movie... i talked to my rents and oka about it and they were fine with it, it deff made me more confident doin the shoot... my rents had one thing to say, dont show too much!! =D

now... when u think of FHM, u think of bikinis, topless, a whole lotta skin, riteeee???... well thank goodness this is FHM indo, so it still has limits.. hehehe... aaannnddd the great thing bout it was we got to bargain bout the clothin.... and thank goodness, we all got away with sexy tops, more like clubbin wear.. hehehe.. so it was all gravy!... well exept for this chick imey, she wore a lingerie... she was the only one who got balls to do so.. haahaha...

so i must say our photo shoot today was deff nothin compared to FHM over in the US... im still a goody goody ;-) it was a long day... but it was deff an experience.. sumthin i'll prob never do again, yea most likely not gon happen again.. ehehehe... so im just hopin the pics will turn out great in the February edition...

here r sum of the pics from today's shoot...


with sabriaaaaa


with imeeeeyyyyy


all 4 ladies


hey waiiiittt my hair aint done yet!


ok now we can start.. hehehe...


afterwards, my baby picked me up.. and we had a relaxin rest of the day at his house =)


luv u baby!

MERRY XMAS !!!

i just wanna wish everyone a MERRY XMAS !!!
hope all of u have a great one !!!
wish i was there with u guys...
miss uuuuuuu all =D

KING KONG

yes its another movie review... dont hate asta and kanel... hahahaha...
oka n i saw it today... i luuuuuuvvvvvveeeddd it.... two thumbs up... i didnt think it was gonna b that good... but i must say i was deff entertained... and i criiieeddd... (when do i not cry? hahahah)... sad sad movie... i want me a kong hehehehe...
u guys better go see it! its worth it, its worth it =D

MALAYSIA

woo hooo woo hoo woo hoo...
if everythin goes well, i'm goin to malaysia next month for my bday!!!
im plannin on goin with my cuzins... so far there are 9 of us!!!
too bad oka wouldnt b able to make it =(
hes busy with classes/courses, and he cant miss any of them...
-dont worry baby, i'll get u some souvenirs ;-)
hehehehe
i have never been to malaysia before... so i'm really lookin forward to it... aaannnddd Naadira aka my lil twin lives there now... she attended stuart also, and ppl used to say we looked so much alike that we could have been twins.. hahaha... in 2003 i moved to indo and she moved to malaysia... hehehe... so yeaaaaa i cant wait to meet up with her too =D

u guys want anythin from malaysia???

hahaha... say wuuuttt???

You Are Karamel Sutra

Plain on the outside, but once someone gets in, they're stuck

What Flavor Ben and Jerry's Ice Cream Are You?

souvenirs

yes who doesnt like souvenirs.. heheheh
my rents was outta the country.. they went to Thailand for a week... and they came back like 2 days ago... aaaannnnddd they got me so many stuff its not even funny... ooh i luuvvvvv em... heheehe... they got me bags/purses, tops, and jackets... me like me like... hehehehe
i was supposed to go with them also, but i couldnt cuz i had to work.. yikes...
but hopefully i get to go someday... never been to Thailand before so it would b great, i kno it.. hehe..

in and out

aaaaahhh.... i'm tired.. been in and outta town for the past 2 weeks... the suckie part, i was outta town for both weekends... yikes... so didnt get to spend sat nites with oka... it was my fault tho, y did i even take the job, my ass doesnt even like travellin for goodness sake...
but thats over and done with... glad to b back... now i can b a bum and rest... hehehehe