~ 9 Management~ 2nd anniversary

yup.. i was in Bandung for the weekend for my management 2nd anniversary party... i wasnt even gonna go cuz god knows my mind is a lil fucked rite now.. but if i didnt go that means im not bein professional.. damn me!.. y do i always give a fuck bout everythin.. when i myself is still feelin like shiet..
it was a freakin rude awakenin for me, ppl kept askin me where he was.. this is the worst phase i guess.. lettin ppl kno we're not freakin together anymore.. tried to keep my kewl.. dunno how i did cuz i found myself with a blank stare at times, my mind wanders off... shiet..
had me sum drinks and i was the best actrees ever... check out my fake ass smiles, these r some pics from the party...

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~Brand New Start~

When I wake up in the mornin’
Another day being all alone
Tied my hair up
Into the bathtub

Lovely touch still remains
Taste of your lips lingers in my brain
It’s all said and done
I gotta move on
There’s nothing left for me to say

Gotta keep my head up way up high
Gotta keep my feelings deep inside
No more cries Imma be alright
It’s a brand new start for me

Gotta keep my two feet on the ground
But it seems so hard to move around
So I’ll slow it down
Maybe for now
I know I gotta move on, I’m moving on

Love seems so hard to understand
But I gotta keep on tryin’
Tryna understand what it all means to me
Sweet love, why’d you got to leave me all alone
Don’t you see me cryin, I’m cryin
But you still turn your back on me

Sweet love, why’d you have to leave this way
But baby it’s okay
I found my better day
Without you by my side
We’re not meant to be
Goodbye to you and me

this song hit me baaaddd...
but yes im strong, i gotta stay strong, and i can go thru this...
watch me...

i believed u

u told me the reason was our one and only issue, i believed u...
u told me its all because of ur parents, i believed u...
u told me u had a changed of mind, i believed u...
u told me u still care about me, i believed u...
u told me u have no one else but me n u want me to still stick around, i believed u...
u told me u just want to focus on ur career, i believed u...

for once u really hurt me by lettin me go that easily...
while im over here still tryin to make 'us' work again...
from the beginning of our relationship, i believed we were goin to work out just fine...
not a day gone by that i didnt have faith in 'us'... i believed in 'us'..

i've done my share of sleepless nite and cryin myself to sleep...
u've deff put me thru hell and back in the past 2 weeks...
and i still believed that we will b just fine...

but i am done with all that shiet..
cuz i when i found out the truth.. the real reason... i am pissed the fuck off..

its so funny..
when i had a hunch about it, i let that shiet go and said to myself naahhh its not even like that..
when i heard it from someone else, i still let that shiet go and told that person u are not that of an ass hole..
when i asked u about it and u denied it, i believed u..
when i asked u again about it and u denied it, i still believed u...
cuz i still believed in us...

then...

it took one unnecesary text msg from ur so called new friend...
it took one call to ur luvly mom...
it took one last convo between us...

thats when all the truth came out...
and 2 and a half years of our relationship went down the drain...

thank u for all the lies
thank u for all the cries
thank u for all the pain

all i wanted was an explanation...
it's sad that i still havent gotten the whole truth from u...
but talkin to ur luvly parents sure did help alot...

i still wish u nothin but the best...
but if u are so smart to come up with such a plan to let me go...
then i hope u're smart enuff to kno wut u are actually doing...
u are repeatin ur own history...

how r u any diff from the one who once put u thru the same shiet im goin thru rite now?

00100

fuck half man half amazin'
u r half a fuckin man in my eye

"alone in the f*ckin dark"

this is pretty much how i feel since a week ago...

~alone in the fuckin dark~

sux to b me rite about now...

wina's 4 month pregnancy

alrite.. so here i am at home and freakin bored outta my mind.. i didnt do jack shiet the whole day today and its not even funny.. i wanna go out but kinda broke.. Oka is busy and so are my buddies.. aaahhhh.. so not fun!.. me no likey!

so i guess i'll just post up some pics from wina's 4 month pregnancy celebration type thing.. yea wutever it was called.. it was held on april 21st... and it wasnt a baby shower tho.. more like a whole lotta praying.. and eatin.. hehehe...

Photo Collage by Dundoo

can't wait til her baby shower.. partyyyyyy... heehehe

baby!

this is Qaiser Burch, say HELLO to my lil nephew ppl =D

Photo Collage by Dundoo

ps. nope he's not my sis' baby.. he's my cuzin's.. my sis' lil devil will b in this world in sept.. hehehe

luv this guy

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~I’m a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I’m a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that’s exactly what I need~

more random pics

yea, no, hes not really sleepin.. mr.actor rite here.. hehehe...


and yea, i dunno wut hes doin either.. hehehe..

all i kno, i luv this guy a whole lotta! mwah !!!

(RED)

sportin the shirt from asta..

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luv it !!!

~ easter package from ms. tesfaye ~

check out wut i got as soon i got home last nite !!!





its a care package from the one and only ASTER aka asta aka blackie... heheheeh...

sooo happy!... i swear she is so thoughtful.. she even put some easter eggs in it... wahahaha.. so cute!

wut did i get???
- (RED) shirt from GAP... luvin it!
- a pair of earings with my name on it... hollaaaaa! ahahaha...
- VA Beach key chain... (made in indo-- too funny!)
- ONE wrist band... make poverty history ppl..
- 2 easter eggs.. wut wut.. hehehe...

thank uuu and luv uuu asta !!!

a happy camper, yes i am !!!

so after 3 days and 2 nites in KL, my bro and i got back in town las nite..

and i must say i am suuuucchhh a HAPPY CAMPER.. sooo glad we went to see Kanye West in concert cuz it was GEE-DOUBLE O-DEE--GOOD!!! hehehehe... sooo sooo good.. i was deff entertained.. HE delivered it well.. i mean he was running all over the place... so freakin energetic!... not to mention the sound system was awesome... and most importantly he got the crowd pumped.. so pumped that when it was over i even looked like i just took a shower! i was sweatin like a pig, for real for real! hahaha... so much fun!

here are some pics from our trip...

aaaaahhh... all i gotta say is I LUV CONCERTS!!!

i heard JT might be havin a concert around here some time this year...god i hope its true!... i doubt he'll come all the way to indo tho.. so s'pore or malay here i comeeeeeee! ehehehe...