time flies

sheeesshhh.. cant believe its july already... we're in the 2nd half of 2006... come to think of it, thats kinda scary dont u think?... for real, im not gettin any younger, goodness... i'll b 25 in january, aaahhhhhh!... y cant i b forever 21!.. hehehe..

if u ask me, i have yet satisfied with wut i have achieved, well im only human, i think no human is ever satisfied u kno..

my life is, ummm, i dunno i honestly think if i never moved back here things would deff b diff.. not just my life n ppl round me, but i myself, u kno.. how i was deff more independent before.. i did everythin by my self, i drove myself places.. i got a job, got my own money to spend.. my rents trusted me n let me go places by myself..

but nowwwww... everythings changed... man i dont think i've grown, instead i think i became spoiled, ok so maybe i was a lil spoiled before heheh but yea i think its gotten worse... i dont drive, im freakin dependent on a driver... i take cabs but sumtimes its just scary to take cabs by ur own self, n dont even ask bout nite time... i got a job, but bein in this whole entertainment industry u can never b too sure for a stable job... no stable paycheck at times u kno, kinda sux... my rents dont really let me go places by myself, unless they kno who im gon b with... they deff ask the 5W now, who? when? where? what? why?... and im freakin 24 for goodness sake and yet i feel like i have a curfew for life, aahhhhh sux!

and back then i work aaaanndd i go to skool... rite now, theres no skool for me... the bad thing bout bein outta the loop for so long, i kinda got super lazy to go back... but i kno i will, i have to, no questions bout that... well maybe WHEN? is the question... and the answer, ummm... soon... i hope... yeaaa...

aaahhh i dunno, maybe im just ramblin bout nonsense, but i dunno, it makes sense rite? kinda? sorta? maybe?... ugh...